Why Did God Create You?


By, Crystal S. Kauffman, Staff Writer

Jesus is there

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Many people wonder why God created them, but the Bible says we were all created for God’s pleasure. I couldn’t wrap my own head around the fact that God made me for his pleasure. I am a sinner who doesn’t deserve God’s mercy or grace. How could God get pleasure for my sinful ways? Everyone sins and fall short of God’s glory. However, through Jesus, we can be forgiven of those sins and be cover by his blood sacrifice.

Rev. 4:12 (KJV) “Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honor and power: for Thou has created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.”

This verse means a lot to me, as someone who truly tries to remember every day to somehow bring God pleasure. I love writing, so I use my talent to try and make sense of my everyday stumbles. Sometimes, I feel like God is right there holding my hand but other times I feel he is distant. However, I truly believe that my sin blocks my relationship with God and I choose to repent. I know I am forgiven when I stumble and fall. He is there to lift me back up, because he loves me.

Psalms 72:13 (KJV) “He shall spare the poor and needy, and shall save the souls of the needy.”

So, now I try to take time to honor God every day. No matter the storm I am facing, I am trying to remember to pray and stay connected with God. I love reading and listening to my Bible, but I use a YOU VERSION app on my phone. I have been learning more and trying to always remember to thank God for each new day that I wake up. I am imperfect and I know that, but God wants me as I am. He can mold me into what he wants me to be with each new step.

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Personal Opinion- God doesn’t make junk!**

**I cannot go to church as regular as I want, but I spend a lot of time praying and seeking God’s guidance in my life. God gives me so much, so I can spend time with God at home and I can work on my failures. I hope this devotional can help you in your walk with God. Keeping a prayer journal can help you learn how to give your problems to God and learn how to pray to him.**

 Thank you for reading and come back to visit.

©2016,Crystal S. Kauffman

 

Coming Home


By, Crystal S Kauffman, Staff Writer

impossible God

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You’re the one I look to when my life falls apart,
You have had me in your hands from the start.
My life was bleak when I decided to move away,
So today, I come back home to you and here I will stay.

I know you will accept me, so I don’t feel an ounce of fear,
I am humbled, on my knees, and silently listening to hear.
Where do I go next as I choose to let you guide me,
You are the only the one in this world that can set me free.

Only you know where my life will ultimately lead,
I haven’t forgotten that I gave you my heart and its deed.
I have stumbled through life and looked for guidance from all,
Instead, I found a ton of strength the moment I took my fall.

I will continue to grow in the ways you choose for my life,
Despite the trials and tribulations that will cut like a knife.
Lord, I know you are in control of my life and my future,
Therefore, the peace will replace the temporary sutures.

©2012, Crystal S. Kauffman

Wings of Hope Project-Dec. 2014


Wings of Hope Project has started on November 1st, 2014. We will be giving out patient bags to the Shands Infusion Center for Women in Jacksonville, FL. After they are told they have cancer, the patients will receive one of our bags that will let them know that there is some out there that cares about them. Our goal is to make up 20 bags, so please take a moment and help us make someone day a little brighter.

We need small gifts:

Figurines (Angels are a big hit)

Homemade Bracelets

Small Bibles

Bookmarks (Positive Saying)

Journal or Diaries 

Stickers (positive stuff)

Small Day Calendar ( keep track of appointments for 2015)

Can you help us?

We will be giving them out the week before Christmas.

Thank you! 

Please email me for more details…laughatcancer@gmail.com.

If I Could Change the World


I would start by spreading seeds of kindness to all nations and change the heart of every adult or child. Only, then can a reaction began to take effect and they will inspired to spread their seeds of kindness. I’d start by spreading seeds of kindness around my own city and neighborhood. Then, I would try to visit every state and nation trying to inspire others by my actions. Once, I find the best ways to impact somebody with an act of kindness.

In return, they will also want to spreads seeds of kindness to those they love and know. Change will begin, as the heart of every man and nation has been affected by the kindness of others. The reaction will spread across every ocean and reach those with the coldest hearts. By spreading the seeds of kindness, I can stop the violence and sorrow. Therefore, laughter and love will run rampant in the heart of every man, woman, and child.

No one would cry, as the love and welfare of others will rule their heart and mind. Never will hunger kill another living person, because there would be enough to eat. All children will experience unconditional love, instead of hate and anger. There would be no more terrorists left, due to their hearts and minds, being filled with unconditional kindness. Therefore, the world can change, if one person is able to start a chain reaction of love.

No doubt about it, I would help others to feel good about exactly, who they are inside their heart. So, they will help others that they meet on their journey and teach them to replace hate with kindness and love. Everyone would be happy and only cry tears of joy, for kindness can deliver us from evil and harm. Even the cold-hearted humans, will be affected the chain reaction, which has been started by a person that actually cares.

Seeds of kindness can be planted deep in the hearts of those that I meet each day. No matter where I go or who I see, I can start a reaction that will continue to grow. Suddenly, the kindness can be seen in the people that we meet each day. I can watch the seeds, as they spread all over the world and touch every heart. Therefore, one person can plant a seed that sets off a chain reaction, which can reach the unreachable….if I wasn’t afraid!

So, I will spend my life trying to spread seeds of kindness to those I met. However, I hope my actions can make a difference in this world of mine. As I walk daily with many, whom I will influence with my own plan to care. Hopefully, I can reach their heart and start a chain reaction that flows all around the world.

A Glimpse into My Family’s Lives


We miss you papa and granny. This is my memorial to you and the generations of family that you both helped to create in your 49 years together. We love you! I hope you are dancing together in heaven. Please subscribe to my channel to see more videos from me. Thanks for reading and watching!

Oh No…My Mommy Has Cancer!


 

This story is in this book.  Avaliable as an e-book on Amazon.

This story is in this book. Available as an e-book on Amazon.

 

“Shh!” Molly whispered to her little brother Drake, who is four-years-old.

“Don’t wake up Mommy! She just got home from the hospital.”Kevin reminded them.

Molly stated “Mommy is sick and seems to sleep a lot lately.”

“I know but your mother is very sick. Sleep helps her body to heal.” Kevin explained

Molly is seven-years-old with big beautiful brown eyes like her mom. However, her complexion was olive color like her father. As she grows, she has more of her mother’s personality coming out of her. Molly has shoulder length golden brown hair that matched her father’s eyes. She has her mother’s unruly hair, but Drake has his father’s oily hair type and he was blessed father’s eyes. Drake favored his father yet many people have told Chelsey that Drake looks just like her.  Nevertheless, he has chestnut brown hair, just like his mother and his sister.

Chesley has complained about a sharp throbbing pain in her lower abdomen, since she was twelve years old. However, most doctors diagnosed her with Gastritis and each doctor informed her to get gas pills. In September of 2002, she began working for a landscaping service and a small plant nursery. She cleaned up the weeds in the plant, while taking care of the plants and the office. All month long Chelsey had a horrible pain in her belly, but due to no health insurance, she couldn’t go to a doctor without paying upfront. Her monthly bills ate up her money like: rent, electricity, phone, gas, and car insurance

She had no choice but to visit local emergency room to get the help she needed. She ended up staying in the hospital for three days, while the doctors pumped antibiotics in to her system. Chelsey finally got better, but the pain never really went away and she was advised to see a specialist. Thankfully, her visit to the emergency room actually helped her to get approved for a state medical insurance plan. The OB/GYN doctor she was referred to by the hospital, needed to recheck her in order to see if the infection had responded to the antibiotics that were given to her at the hospital.

This specialist examined her and took a biopsy of her cervix, which is the removal of a tissue sample. He wanted to see if he could explain why Chelsey’s lower abdomen was still in severe pain. The doctor sent the biopsy to the hospital lab to be examined and tested. The specialist nurse called Chelsey on the phone and asked her to come to the doctor’s office that afternoon in Oct. 2002. Molly noticed that her mom was crying the next day when she got home from work.

           “Did something bad happen at work?” She asked as her mother hugged her tightly.

“Nothing for you to worry about sweetie, Mommy is having a bad day right now.” Chelsey replied trying to reassure Molly.

Molly began cleaning her mother’s office when she saw some information about cervical cancer on her desk. This made her worry, so Molly got very sad because she knew people that had died due to cancer.

“Do you have cancer Mommy? Are you going to die?” She asked her mother.

Molly’s eye began filling tears, as Drake crawled into her mother’s lap and began crying as well.

“Yes, I have cancer, but tomorrow my cancer doctor will decide the treatment I will need to take. Then, I’ll know more about what we can expect once I see the oncologist.”

“Will you die mommy?” Drake asked with tears streaming down his face.

“I don’t believe I will die, but I will get very sick due to chemotherapy and radiation. Plus, there will be some other changes around the house.” Chelsey answered cautiously.

“You both will have to help your mother more out around the house now, Molly.” Kevin stated.

Kevin works as the maintenance man of the small mobile home park, which they have lived in for about two years. Sometimes, if needed, he can come home and help Chelsey during the day.

“Do I have to help care for Drake too?” Molly attested.

“Yes, you will have to help me from time to time with your little brother, due to my illness and upcoming treatment.” Her mother answered.

Molly helped Drake get a bath and helped her mother dress him, whenever he finished his bath. Chelsey began gathering up information that Molly and Drake could read about my illness. Molly decided to take a shower, while her mother was using the computer. She finished her shower and dressed in her favorite pajama, which is pink thermal underwear set with tiny purple and green flowers on them.

“Listen Molly, here is some information I gathered for you to read. This way, you can ask me any questions that you may have once your done reading.” Her mom said while trying to help Molly understand her illness. The information she was able to read would ultimately help answer most of her questions she may have about the disease itself. Molly and her mother began reading the information together and she understood why her mother’s stomach hurt a lot.

Molly read that people with cancer most always lose their hair, so she asked her mom, “Are you going to lose your hair mom?”

“No, my doctor said the type of chemotherapy I need will not cause me to lose my hair.” Chelsey explained.

Molly fell asleep reading the information about cervical cancer that her mom gave her. Chelsey knew that she need to call a family meeting the next day, once everyone was home. The next day Kevin, Molly, and Drake were sitting on the old brown and brandy wine colored couch. They waited for Chelsey in the living room that has been decorated in NASCAR memorabilia hanging on each of the walls. Molly and her family began discussing Chelsey’s illness and the changes that will soon become reality.

Chelsey asked Molly, “Do you know what cancer is?”

Molly answered,” Yes, I learned that cancer isn’t just one disease, but it is rather a group of blood cells that keep growing out of control.”

Molly asked, “How did you get cancer mommy?”

“I do not know how I got this cancer, but you cannot catch cancer by hugging or kissing me. Also, you cannot catch it by sharing the bathroom with me or using my hairbrush.”  Her mommy assured her.

Molly asked reluctantly, “Will you die from cancer like your friend Vicky did?”

Chelsey responded with a tear in her eye, “I don’t believe that I will die, but I don’t want to promise you anything.”

Molly hugged her mom really tight and declared, “I have been asking God to help you! He promised he would help if I ask.”

“That’s true God did say to ask and you shall receive, if you have faith of a tiny mustard seed you can move a mountain out of your way.” Chelsey assured Molly.

“Does anyone have any questions about my illness?” Her mom asked.

“Will you have to stay in the hospital?” asked Molly

“Yes, Sweetie, I will have to stay in the hospital for three weeks off and on to receive the chemotherapy by IV. I will require two minor surgeries to put sedum implants into my Uterus to deliver the radiation where it needs to go.” Chelsey explained, “I will be radioactive once I have the surgery and they place the implants. You won’t be able to visit me during that time. However, you can visit anytime you want. I will also require Radiotherapy, which is like a photon laser hitting the tumor everyday for about fifteen minutes a day.”

“Will you quit smoking cigarettes?” Molly questioned.

“Yes, I am going to try really hard to quit smoking cigarettes, because if I don’t the cancer will come back or will not respond to treatment.”  Chelsey responded with an uncertain tone of voice.

“We will help you!” Kevin and Molly promised.

Drake yelled, “I will help you too mommy!”

Chelsey explained, “You both will be staying with your dad, until I finish treatment. He will bring you both to visit me at the hospital or at home.”

Chelsey’s treatment started on a Monday, which was the sixth day of January 2003. Thankfully, both children visited her every weekend, whether she was in the hospital or not. They would stay over at home, if their mother felt strong enough to keep them. Molly and Drake enjoyed every moment they were able visit with their mother. Chelsey was very sad, but she stayed focused on getting better and beating the deadly disease. She finally called her family to tell them about her diagnosis and each member handled the news in their own way. Some offered assistance to Chelsey and her family, just in case they needed help. Chelsey’s doctor is called an Oncologist/OB, which is a doctor that is trained to treat the many kinds of cancers that may occur in women.

He explained that cancer is blood cells that began to divide abnormally. Soon, these cells can form a tumor, which begins to cause pain while getting larger. Although not all cancers form tumors, some are found in the patient’s blood stream or the bones. The doctor explained that Chelsey’s cervical cancer was already at Stage 2B. This means that the cancer had already begun spreading on the right side of her body. The doctor explained that Metastasis is the process of cancer spreading to other organs in the body through the lymph nodes. Chelsey’s doctor elected not to do surgery and referred her to a new doctor who will take over her care.

The new Oncologist prepared Chelsey for Radiotherapy or Radiation, while the Chemotherapy nurse discussed the type of chemotherapy she will be receiving. Chelsey became close with the chemotherapy nurse and she felt like this nurse cared about her future. According to her doctor and chemotherapy nurse, the chemotherapy nurse, believe that Brach therapy or cesium implants and radiation are supposed to help shrink the tumor. Chelsey had chemotherapy, which helped to send the cancer into remission.

So far, the treatment was helping Chelsey to become cancer free. However, Molly’s mom will need to be checked every three months, in order to make sure the cancer does not come back. The healthcare team that was taking care of Molly’s mom is just people doing their job, but Molly and her family swears that they saved her mom’s life. Molly’s mom is now a cancer survivor thanks to the efforts of her special healthcare team.

 

(This is my family’s story, but the names were changed for the publication of this story.)

Finding Discovery Park


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One autumn day, after school my twin brother Thomas and I noticed that our family’s dog was not outside on his chain. Nooksack usually barks or howls at us, once we step off the school bus in the afternoon. He will continue barking; until he gets the attention that he is craving from us. I thought that my step-dad might have moved him inside the house, before he went to work. After searching the house, my brother and I realized that Nooksack was missing. I was beginning to worry when my confident brother suggested that we walked along the naval base in Seattle, WA. I was literally stumped on where he could be, because normally he would chase our school bus whenever he broke his chain. As we walked the neighbored, my brother and I gave out his description to the other kids we passed. We knew he liked all children, since we were about to turn ten years old on New Year’s Eve.

Where could he be?” I thought to myself.
“Let’s go check the nature trail. Nooksack is used to us walking with him in that area.” Thomas suggested.

Nooksack was a dark brown and tan German-Shepherd mix, who was born different colored eyes. His left eye was light blue and his right eye was a dark brown, which made him unique. I was getting frustrated and sad because we couldn’t find him, but my brother was sure we would find him. I continued calling his name, as my brother continuously whistled for him.
We walked down a winding hill, until we reached a path which was lined with wild flowers and apple trees. My brother decided to grab a couple of the green apples for us, as we continued walking along the trail. I stopped to pick some wildflowers for my mom, as Thomas handed me an apple. I stuck my apple in my pocket and we continued looking and calling for him. 

In the distance, we saw a small wooded trail, which lead deeper into the woods. My brother and I were sure we had never seen it before. At first, I didn’t want to follow the new trail, because I was worried about getting lost. However, my brother assured that he knew the way back to our home. As we approached the trail, I noticed a large set of paw prints, which belonged to a large dog like Nooksack.

 I knew that the paw prints could belong to our dog, so I became excited and showed my brother what I had discovered. He suggested that we follow the paw prints and the new trail we had found. Not long after we set out on the wooded trail, we came to a clearing and found a wooden gate. The gate was made of two totem poles with carvings of animals and a sign that read, Discovery Park in bright yet bold yellow letters. My brother and I walked through the gate and followed the walkway, until it led to two small buildings that were painted an off-white color. As we got closer to the buildings, I noticed a small playground with a set of swings and a tall metal slide. My brother and I ran to the swings, when a four-legged figure appeared from behind the trees that lined the backside of the playground. Suddenly, I realized it was Nooksack walking toward us with his tail wagging and barking at my brother and I. Personally, I was thrilled about finding our dog, but even more excited to have found such an interesting place.

  “There you are! Come here boy.” I called out. 
  My brother and I played fetch with Nooksack, until he had had all the attention he could stand for the moment. He decided to go lay down in the shade, while we investigated the buildings that we had discovered. The first building was open, so my brother and I quietly made our way inside the mysterious buildings. I stood in amazement of what we found inside of the building, which was full of real-life Indian artifacts. The buildings walls were lined with clothing, unique jewelry, moccasins, and wooden sculptures. In addition, some interesting artifacts were enclosed in a locked glass case that lined the back wall. My brother pointed out some beautiful paintings of different Indians who were riding their horses. These paintings were leaning against a wall near a closet, but the closet was locked. 

  My brother and I decided to venture out of the building, in order to explore what was inside of the second building. Once, we were inside of the building, we found more glass cases with more impressive artifacts. In addition, we found a small model, which showed the two buildings and the playground. My brother and I read the different articles and notices that were hanging on the walls before we left the building. 

  “I’ll race you to the swing…Sis!” My brother yelled. 

  Suddenly, he took off running toward the swing set and I was closing in fast, but he beat me to the swing as usual. After we had played on the swings for a while, I pointed out the tall metal slide. My brother jumped off the swing and ran toward the slide, so I decided to follow him. He began climbing toward the top of the slide as I stood at the bottom and watched. Finally, I decided to climb the stairs, in order to reach the top of the slide but my heart began pounding with fear. When I reached the top of the slide, the excitement started to replace the fear that I had felt. I felt the wind rush against my face, as I slid down the enormous slide. In that moment, I could not believe how much fun we were having in this new park, which we had discovered while looking for our dog. 

We lost track of time over the next few hours and the sun began to set overhead, so we put Nooksack’s leash on him. My brother stopped me and urged to be quiet, because he had heard a sound coming from the woods. Our dog began growling and barking, as a figure of a large man appeared to be coming out of the woods. My brother and I stayed behind our dog, as we hid under the slide. 

 My brother whispered “Stay here with Nooksack. Be prepared to run, just in case.” 
“I won’t leave you.” I declared as my heart began pounding. 
“I will be right behind you.” He promised.

Just as my brother came out from under the slide, I saw an older man with dark skin and long black hair approaching us. The man was using an old wooden walking stick as a cane. He was dressed similar to the men in the paintings, which we had seen earlier inside the buildings. I noticed that he was wearing a pair of real leather moccasins, like the ones we had seen in the glass display cases. 

 “Hi, I am Chief Twin Feather. I did not mean to frighten either of you. I am the caretaker here at the museum and the playground.” The mysterious man claimed with a friendly smile. “What brings you both here so late?” 

 “We were looking for our dog and we found him here at the park, but we lost track of time!” Thomas answered as he shook the man’s hand. Nooksack began wagging his tail and barking his friendly bark, like he knew the man as he reached down to pet him.

I stepped out from under the slide to shake the man’s hand and introduced myself to him.

“Your dog has been coming to visit me for about a month now.” The Chief revealed. 
“No wonder he breaks his chain a lot!” I responded. “It’s nice meeting you, but we have to go home.” 
“Come back anytime you want and be sure to bring your dog.” He declared with a warm smile.

After we made it home, we told our mom all about the Indian park and museum that we discovered in the woods. Our parents decided to follow us to the park the next and they brought my little brother Jamie along. Chief Twin Feather met our parents and my little brother loved the simple playground as much as we did. Every day after school, we took our dog to see Chief Twin Feather, while my brothers and I played at the park. The Chief taught us about the many artifacts in the museum and what each on represented. I enjoyed hearing his many interesting, yet intriguing stories shared about how his ancestors lived. One day, he invited us to a special ceremonial dance and he gave my family new tribal names.

My official Indian name was Free Spirit and my twin brother’s name was Wild Eagle. However, I don’t remember what he named the rest of my family, but it was one memorable night. For the next few years, my brothers and I always met up with the Chief at the park, so he could teach us more about his culture. Furthermore, he took us on a tour of the lighthouse, since he was also the caretaker. We had a wonderful time and I will never forget Discovery Park or the many things he taught us. 

 Today, Discovery Park is one of the largest wildlife parks in Seattle, Washington. The park has grown considerably, since we lived there in the early 80’s. I noticed that there have been many changes since the last time my family visited this park. However, a few things have remained the same, like the lighthouse and the Indian Cultural Center that once was a small museum.