Temptation Moved In Next Store


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By, Imogen Rayne

Two months ago, temptation literally moved in next store to me. I became anxious and worried about my own path to recovery as an recovering addict. I have over two years clean from an addiction to Crack cocaine. I didn’t use regularly, but I fell too many times into an addiction trying to beat an addiction to opiates.

First of all, I became angry to see the dealer pull up to his house. Then, I got even angrier when he borrowed something from me and it didn’t matter what it was. Honestly, I never really fought the urge to use that drug again, but I fought the urge to not feel the pain that I feel ever since my cancer treatment within my stomach, back, and legs.

I am so proud of myself, because I was able to truly overcome the devil and keep moving forward in my own recovery and my life. For a moment, I did become weak and I immediately leaned on my support system. They each guided me in the steps to take daily as this drug is displayed in my face on a regular basis.

Most of all, I am praying for the addict, which is all I can do to be honest. I am damn proud of myself for continuing to rock sobriety, even when others thought I would not make it in my sober journey. Additionally, I have had a stable home for nine months and I have worked hard to make amends with my family and friends.

If you are rocking sobriety, give me a “Hell yeah” in the comments!

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Hobbies Are Vital…


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By, Crystal S. Kauffman

There are other things to do to take your mind off things. You need to find people who enjoy the same hobbies that you do. However, you could also learn new obvious that your new friends like.

There are things like fishing, boating, bowling, mudding, racing, horseback riding, and so much more. Look for new things to do, instead of sitting at home and staying stuck inside your own head.

You can find things that do not include other people or a lot of money. However, you may find something that may interest you need to take time to explore new things you and your friends that you have made since you turned your life around.

Never allow anyone to make you feel like there is nothing to do now that you are sober and in recovery. A new life has just begun for you and you should explore new hobbies and friends who live a clean life.

You can make friends at local AA or NA groups, as well as local online groups. Don’t give up on making new friends or new hobbies, just because you’re having a setback at the moment.

Take time to learn from every setback and every new obstacle that you may encounter on your journey. You have the power to change your life, once you’re beaten your demons and have entered recovery.

Look around online for new forms of exercise like: CrossFit, yoga, Pilates, and martial arts to name a few. This new routine of exercising will help you avoid gaining weight once you slay your demons and become sober. Furthermore, Stress can also be managed by creating a regular release system through exercise or new hobbies.

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You Can be Redeemed!


By, Crystal S Kauffman

Are you struggling with guilt because of your past addictions? Do you feel like after all you did that no one can honestly love or care about you? Well, no matter how far you were ensnared in addiction, you can be redeemed but you must try to make amends to those you hurt. As long as making amends will not cause more hurt to you or others, you must try to ask for forgiveness and move forward.

Don’t get hung up on your guilt, since all that will do is give you a reason to step backwards and you may die with the next hit or shot. Also, work hard to help those around you in ways that you are able, but don’t let someone else’s problem become your problem. Making bad choices will cost your recovery, so try to make better decisions throughout each day. Call a trusted friend and ask their advice whenever you are unsure of what choice to make.

As you begin taking steps to make amends in your life, you will find that your guilt will no longer be such a heavy burden for you to bear. Remember to just breathe and keep moving forward as you reclaim all that you lost in addiction and more. Go to counseling and AA or NA meetings to learn coping skills that will help you deal with the different emotions that you will feel in recovery. Remember, be humble and just focus on making it through each moment, so you can take it it one day at a time.

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One Moment at a Time…


By, Crystal S. Kauffman

In recovery, I hear everyone say take it “One Day at a Time”, but the truth is that you must make it through each moment first. There are 60 minutes within an hour and you must make it through 24 hours each day. My personal belief is that you must make it “One Moment at a Time”, because this is truly the only way you will make it through the day.

Especially, when you choose to enter recovery and take control of your life again. No matter how addiction has grabbed you, be willing to face the ugly truth and take personal inventory of your life.

The first step, is to keep you mind busy, because if all you do is sit around and think about all the mistakes you made. You will lose any ground you have gained in your recovery and begin self destructing again.

Next step, get away from everyone who is toxic to you like friends and family who are still using drugs or using you. Take time to yourself and evaluate who lifts you and who tears you down.

This this time to get real with yourself and decide does your life matter? Find a support group or rehab center to learn coping skills and ways to combat your cravings. You got this, but you have to truly want to be free from addiction.

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Spread Positive Seeds


By, Crystal S. Kauffman-Amon

Sometimes, when I meet a person for the first time, I literally will have to get away from this person as fast as I can. I can just feel their negative energy pouring off of them before they even say a word to me. Immediately, these negative people will have this defeated look that seems to stay with them throughout the time that you are around them.

It gets worse, whenever they talk because they seem full on negative comments or contradictions as they talk. Nothing is ever good enough for them, since life has always been terrible for them and they choose to remain in addiction. However, they don’t realize that they are giving power to the negative energy and words, by planting seeds that will grow.

Instead, be a person who plants positive seeds and spread positive energy everywhere you go throughout your day. There will be disappointments, but don’t dwell on them and become negative or bitter. Take what you have learned and apply it to the next adventure that you plan to take, whether it is a new school or a new job.

Remember, setbacks are temporary and designed to make you feel like a failure, but learn from that setback and make the next moment your comeback. Spread those positive seeds, by helping others who are new in recovery and may need a shoulder to lean on or a friend to help them in their moment of weakness.      

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(I am not a licensed therapist. Based on personal knowledge.)

No Matter What…Love Yourself!


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So many times, people call you selfish or greedy when you try to look out for yourself. However, the first step to loving yourself is finally learning to think about yourself and your needs above all others. Anyone who is above the age of eighteen can look out for themselves. Everybody wants something from you and before you know it, you are the one who is drained and depressed. Stop giving them the power to hurt you, by making them take responsibility for their own self.

Take time to make yourself happy, by choosing to do what you want to do like: buy a new outfit, go on an outing, or indulge yourself by learning a fun new dance. I mean come on, if they are not children, then why should you give them the power to take away your happiness. Make time to caress your mind and your soul, as well as tickle your funny bone every time you get a chance. You’re not greedy; instead you are setting boundaries and letting people know exactly what you will take from them.

Yeah, you may be the bad guy for the day or week, but you will find a sense of peace once people know that they can no longer use you anymore. Honestly, every time you stand up to a person, you actually love yourself more with each line you draw in the sand. So, lift your voice and say, “NO” as many times as you have to, in order to gain a life that has peace and solitude from the craziness. Learn to love yourself, because no one will ever love you, if you don’t first find reasons to love yourself.

©2019, Crystal S. Kauffman

PS: I am not a Licensed Therapist! Based on Personal Experience.

Coping With New Sobriety


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Congratulations on successfully escaping your addiction and joining thousands of others who are on the road to recovery. However, rejoining society after a stint in rehab, jail, or self-imposed isolation can be very difficult at times. Everywhere you turn, you will see something that reminds you of your time spent in the grip of your addiction. Just breathe throughout each temptation and keep moving forward, while reminding yourself that you don’t live there anymore.

Never allow yourself to become overwhelmed by the temptation you will face in society, instead let it empower you. Walk away and smile, because you have just won another huge victory in your personal recovery! You may feel alone or like you have lost everyone, but the truth is you have gained yourself throughout the storm of addiction and that is more valuable than 100 fake friends. Make new friends who can encourage you whenever you feel weak, especially if you do not have a sponsor through your rehab or AA program.

You will run into the people that you used with, but you must remind yourself that they were never your friend in the first place. Always remember that they used you to feed their addiction too, by making sure you stayed hooked on whatever substance you used and they probably pushed you to share. Ask yourself, have you heard from them since you started your journey to become sober? Have they even bothered to call and check up on you or have they just distanced themselves from you?

Don’t give into temptation because you run in to an old so-called friends that still uses and asks if you want to get high or drunk. Temptation is all around you when you are trying to avoid alcohol, because of the television commercials and stores you visit every day. You must cling to your higher power and just breathe through it and get away from the situation as soon as you can. One day, the temptation will not be as strong; instead you will be able to handle it without falling apart inside.   

Stay away from the old places you used to frequent where the dealers hang out, even if it is your work place or the neighborhood store. Do not be afraid to change your entire routine or get a new job, if you have to in order to remain sober and in recovery. You did whatever it took to get high or drunk, now dig deep and do what you got to do to stay clean. Raise your head high and be proud of yourself, because you are learning how to cope with and beat your addiction…one day at a time!

@2019, Crystal S. Kauffman

PS: I am not a Licensed Therapist! Based on my Personal Experience.